so if you want it, come and get it for crying out loud...

yeah...so i'm sitting here, checking blitz every 2 mins, hoping one of the 8 people i blitzed may respond on a friday night at 1:40. highly unlikely.

so i think to myself...i might as well go update my lj since there is absolutely nothing else going on in my life, so here it is. one of the rare updates from ann.

i'm up at kitt peak right now. doing some observing and all of that jazz. except at 5:00 this evening a big ol' storm decided to move through. so the weather is shit...clouds everywhere, wind, and humidity at 98% and climbing. my prof has gone to take a nap and the grad student who has been "showing me the ropes" the past two nights is going to bed in 20 mins, then getting up at 4 and going home. pretty soon...i'll be all alone. sitting in the control room with everything shut down, drinking a coke and playing sudoku.

ahhh...sudoku. what a wonderful time waster. it's the new puzzle game that is sweeping the country right now apparently. it's like a crossword puzzle, except with numbers. if you wanna try it out, and get addicting and waste hours of your life go here: http://www.websudoku.com
it's amazing. you'll thank me later.

yeah...so anyway. the last two nights of observing have been patchy, and apparently chris and holly's run was horrible before. i love being out here...but i'm missing the golf team and the D right about now. sitting in a dark room, having to stay up, and having mice run past you is not the most fun thing to do when there's not a telescope to be using. don't get me wrong..as soon as this bad weather passes through (apparently in a couple days) i'll be loving it. right now, however, i'm missing what i left behind.

and of course, that includes james. i miss him terribly...as always. he hasn't blitzed me nearly as much as he did last time i was here, which is making it worse. i rely on spending time reading one of the three blitzes he's sent me since i was up here and looking at pictures from formal. i've blitzed him far more than i probably should..which is why i'm writing this entry. to prevent me from writing him again. he seems to be really busy with work and being all "manly". the football game, poker, beer, and chips was apparently the "testosterone boost" he needed (in his words). i hope i'm not smothering him...i don't think i am...but then again. ugh...i panicked about this to him this summer...that come senior year, he's going to want to be more with his frat and his class that what he was last year. i understand that...but it's going to be tough. i just don't want to be that clingy girlfriend hanging around everywhere, but standing in the backround to senior pranks, drunken shinanigans, and fraternity life. i know i won't be...but i'm worried. and this isn't helping....

ugh. stop being a girl.

sorry.

i hate that. i fill myself with all of this stupid shit just because he only blitzed me from work today before i got up and then left to go grab dinner, saying he'd write me when he got back. but no word yet. and the blitzes have all been pretty short...

oh, and did i mention that i had a dream he cheated on me last night with one of my sorority sisters? i have no idea why...i mean...out of insecurity i've dreamt that i cheated on him (although they were all people disguised as him). but yeah...last night i had the most disturbing dream about it...i don't even remember it all, but it was freaky enough to wake me up...i saw too much of what i didn't want to see and then ran away in a stolen car to god only knows where...

stop.

i'm stopping now.

ugh. again.

anyway, hopefully i either a) this weather clears and i get to do more observing (yay!!) or b) i get to go to bed sometime soon. cause i've basically run out of things to do on my "list to do while observing" except academic stuff...which i want to take a break from.

oh, and speaking of academic...best term at dartmouth last term!! booya!! :)

and also...i got approval to stay at dartmouth and do research and get paid! although chris thinks i should go to europe...

whatevs. i'll figure all of this out later.

as for me...i'm going to sign off. check blitz again. and then check the weather.

i'm sure there will be more updates over the next week while i'm here...i'll have a lot of time to just sit and think about things. that's what happens when i'm alone.

g'night!